and start in a new circle.
again,
and end
and start again
and again...
Would i get tired of living?
would i remember the people i love so much in this life?
would people remember me?
do they even remember me now?
am i already of much use in this life to move on to another?
do i not regret the things i already have done here?
do i regret not doing the many things i want to do so badly but have not done yet, and letting it be undone?
are you reading this and feeling what i feel?
are you reading this and thinking of me?
are you watching me and wondering what i have in my head?
are you wishing that i never wrote this because it pains you?
are you wishing that i never wrote this because you don't want to listen to the pessimist in me?
are you pushing me away?
do you sincerely care about me?
do you seriously know what i feel about you?
can i be an angel?
can i be nice?
can i give without wanting anything in return?
so i ask you,
do i regret knowing you?
do i regret loving you?
do i regret ever caring for you?
do you regret not caring for anyone but yourself?
do you regret ever trusting me with all the secrets you tell me that break my heart?
that rips me into pieces that the overwhelming pain is too much that i won't even let one bit of it out
because if it leaks out, then, i was right. i did love you.
i do love you
should i never love you?
should i never have known you?
should i leave you to cry and not be by your side to be that shoulder?
should i show you that you mean the whole world to me though to you it's nothing?
because to everyone,
i am nothing.
i am nothing.
but to me, you are everything.
this love for everyone, is everything to me.
and this unrequited love is that pains me.
and this will make me an angel.
this will make me a better person,
to love everyone and not let anyone be unloved.
just so they don't feel this horrible pain.
so don't say that you are not loved.
because for what it's worth i love you.
Even if it just means nothing or makes you feel worse,
saranghaeso, mianhae.
the post for December, my heart is breaking~
